He loves me Fat .

 I gotta tell ya that .. everyday closer to my surgery im realizing just how different my life is going to be. I think about clothes that I own right now .. that i will NEVER have to wear again. I think about clothes I own right now that are too small and how one day they will be lose .. and then bigger and bigger till they wont fit anymore. I think about how it wont be such a struggle just to get around and do simple things. I think about feeling beautiful inside and out for my husband. I think about how the way he looks at me will change .. no long with pitty .. but with excitment. No longer 2nd best but best ever .
  And then after all that .. i think about my sons smile . How when he see's me now .. he gets the biggest smile in the world on his face .. he loves me just the way i am . He loves me fat . <3 If I could bottle up that love and take it with me everywhere I went .... sighs . He is my world . .He is my reason.

GOT MY CLEARENCE !

 I go tmy clearnence from the Psych and now all i need is my sleep apena clearnce to get my date !

CHECK !

 Seen the nurtionsist tonight and she was SUPER COOL !! Im all done there for now ! Now tomorrow is my psych lady ! woot !

testing testing ..

 So tonight the nutrionist  and tomorrow the Psyc clearance ! Its all coming together ! =)  I have so much to do that sometimes i forget what the hell im going throe all this for ! maybe its better that way so im not stressing out about it .
  who the hell knows.

 next week Endoscopy w/biposy.

Sleep Apena date ~

 So I FINALLY made it to my sleep apena consult!! My actual test isnt till Aug 2nd but im holding out hope that someone cancels and i get their spot. He said it happens all the time.
 Next week is my nurtion appt and Psych appt. Everything is really coming together ! I cant belive it ! Im so happy im getting all these test done finally. Im getting closer and closer to my surgery date. Its funny , I really havent thought about all the changes lately. Right now it still seems like a dream . Im sure it will all hit me once im on that pre-op liquid diet ! haha Totally not looking forward to that but whatever it takes =)