IM ON THE LOSING BENCH !! LETS SEE THOSE NUMBERS !

Yup ! Thats right ! I had my Gastric Bypass surgery last Wed . Noc 30th ! Since then I have lost 12 lbs !!! Yes 12 lbs in 7 days ! INSANE ! Granted most of it was problay water weight but hell ill take it! Id like to say that my surgery was a breeze but it was not. I was and still am in alot of pain. Even having laproscopy surgery , its still a big deal. I ended up back in the ER yesterday because i was hurting so dam much. Thankfully my surgen showed up and rescued me with better drugs. Today I feel alot better and im just so excited about my new life coming!! Iam very very tired because im still healing but that should pass in another week or so.
  In other news my lil boy is almost 9 months old WOW ! I cant believe that this time last year i was dreaming of his very first christmas and now its almost here !! Hes got a ton of toys from santa! Sadly since my surgery im not allowed to pick him up yet. It really stinks! Thank god for my husband. Hes really stepped it up. He had to take two weeks off work to take care of me and matty . This is a man who never ever got up in the middle of the night with the baby before so him doing it all on his own is a big deal !! Im very proud of him and im glad he can finally see what it feels like to be a full time " mommy" . haha
  OKAY SO DOWN TO MY NUMBERS !!
Pre-op 327
7 days out - 311.0
   UNREAL !!! SO HAPPY !! 16lbs TOTAL LOSS SO FAR !

I GOT A DATE !! =)

Hello neglected blogspot . Its been some time since Ive updated only because Ive had major issues with my insurance company. There was a time when I didnt think I was going to be able to even have surgery still. So now that all that's in place , we are back on schdule and im having surgery on Nov 16th !! =) Im SO excited and just ready inside and out to start this new phase of my life. Its going to be awesome !)
   Having a major surgery like this makes you think about all the people in your life and how grateful you should be for each day . Im very grateful for my beautiful baby boy and the wonderful man in my life. If anything should happen to me on the table .. I would go completly satisfied with my life. =)
 If I make it off the table .. and I hope I do :P Im really going to try and focus on each day as it comes. Trying not to stress out about my weight or get addicted to the scale.

He loves me Fat .

 I gotta tell ya that .. everyday closer to my surgery im realizing just how different my life is going to be. I think about clothes that I own right now .. that i will NEVER have to wear again. I think about clothes I own right now that are too small and how one day they will be lose .. and then bigger and bigger till they wont fit anymore. I think about how it wont be such a struggle just to get around and do simple things. I think about feeling beautiful inside and out for my husband. I think about how the way he looks at me will change .. no long with pitty .. but with excitment. No longer 2nd best but best ever .
  And then after all that .. i think about my sons smile . How when he see's me now .. he gets the biggest smile in the world on his face .. he loves me just the way i am . He loves me fat . <3 If I could bottle up that love and take it with me everywhere I went .... sighs . He is my world . .He is my reason.

GOT MY CLEARENCE !

 I go tmy clearnence from the Psych and now all i need is my sleep apena clearnce to get my date !

CHECK !

 Seen the nurtionsist tonight and she was SUPER COOL !! Im all done there for now ! Now tomorrow is my psych lady ! woot !

testing testing ..

 So tonight the nutrionist  and tomorrow the Psyc clearance ! Its all coming together ! =)  I have so much to do that sometimes i forget what the hell im going throe all this for ! maybe its better that way so im not stressing out about it .
  who the hell knows.

 next week Endoscopy w/biposy.

Sleep Apena date ~

 So I FINALLY made it to my sleep apena consult!! My actual test isnt till Aug 2nd but im holding out hope that someone cancels and i get their spot. He said it happens all the time.
 Next week is my nurtion appt and Psych appt. Everything is really coming together ! I cant belive it ! Im so happy im getting all these test done finally. Im getting closer and closer to my surgery date. Its funny , I really havent thought about all the changes lately. Right now it still seems like a dream . Im sure it will all hit me once im on that pre-op liquid diet ! haha Totally not looking forward to that but whatever it takes =)